2026 Astrology: From Water’s Dis-soul-ution to Fire’s Disruption & Creation

Neptune’s Transition from Pisces to Aries in 2026 Part 1 of 3: Sea & Story

In 2011 Neptune’s dreams for humanity shifted from Aquarian intellectual and educational culture under Saturn’s work-hard direction, to a sea of free-form possibilities and no rules in Pisces. At home and free to be itself, Neptune stirred our minds with dreams of other dimensions, amplified the price of indulgence, and healed our inner child. Within this loose framework we swam to our edges and have been changed forever, many through loss and upheaval. Neptune is the Roman mythology equivalent of Poseidon, God of the seas, freshwater, horses and earthquakes, all destabilizing. The tide comes in and the tide recedes, often with bits of nature in tow. So is Neptune’s effect on us.

Feeling into Pisces is like taking the hands of Jupiter and Venus, the planets most responsible for enjoyment, beauty and travel. While Jupiter co-rules Pisces with a daringly huge appetite for new experiences, Venus is exalted in the sign of the fishes and especially induglent. Once Neptune entered Pisces in April of 2011, Saturn’s boundaries no longer repressed old wounds nor shame around topics of pleasure. An era of the Goddesses and women coming home to matrilineal strengths, many have found the solace of water in nature and for healing the body, as well as the value of surrender. Although Pisces is more concerned with the immaterial, there is a 1.2 trillion dollar religious and spiritual development industry in the U.S. that blossomed during this era as we sought the softer side of existence after two Saturnian periods. We gave ourselves permission to rest and our criticisms of the world lost their passion as we were easily distracted from “should of” by crisis cycles we needed to heal from, like the pandemic.

Neptune imagines and creates new shorelines and storylines. In April 2011, with Neptune at 0 Pisces, Game of Thrones and Bob’s Burgers successfully captured audiences with decadent sexual vibes and silliness that heals. Who doesn’t have a little Tina, Gene, Louise, Linda and/or Bob in them? 2011 was a life-altering year for me when I became disabled. Arya Stark on the screen gave me strength with her maximum effort to do the right thing… and to take revenge. I, too, would live to fight another day. Dramatic, I know, but so was life. The stories translated to feelings and incorporated into the fabric of our culture is what makes up a Neptunian era.

Parnus- Part 2

Family

“What am I looking at, Dusan? The moons are alive!” Hands splayed on the protruding viewing bubble speckled with luminescence, Scotia laughed and choked a little before a hydrobot spout slipped between her lips. Recalling her early courses when Parnus was still referred to as “new earth”, waterfalls on shimmering individual spheres she’d expected, but undulating infinity patterns within them tweaked her curiosity. Parnus did not resemble Earth even slightly from space, but then this was not the sun’s elliptical orbit, she reminded herself. Three life-sustaining moons created a less oval, more triangulated, and boundaried orbit.

“Everything is alive, like on Earth, but on Parnus life is louder”, Dusan left the com station to appreciate her first views. “You’re going to be amazed from this moment forward and…”, he paused until she turned to look at him, ”maybe scared a few times. If you weren’t frightened, you’d be the first, Scotia”. His concern for her was evident in the worried lines around his dark and earnest eyes.

“Where are the stars”? she asked, determined to learn as much as possible before they landed. “The moons radiate heat, right”? As the effects of cooling dissipated, incomplete facts drifted toward her then away again. Scotia frowned as she tried, and failed, to remember.

Dusan waved one long-fingered hand toward the moons that did not resemble any moon in the Milky Way. “You cannot see the stars in this section of the universe due to Parnus’ moonslight, but on rare occasions the moons dim, and the sky is wonderfully familiar for a little while”.

His nostalgia surprised Scotia. “I remember them saying the moons have pink waterfalls, fantastic enough by itself, but THIS”! Dusan’s worries were forgotten as uncharacteristic laughter burst out of his betrothed. Scotia’s delight easily became his as she continued, “I can’t believe I’m finally here. I never thought I’d see it”, she paused, “or you and Zehmy again”. Her voice cracked on the last bit. The, stranger yet, tears welled in her silver eyes.

Dusan retained his usual stoic façade, but inwardly a seed of hope grew with Scotia’s glee. “We were surprised, too, but I don’t believe anyone was as delighted as you are seeing it for the first time”. He couldn’t help chuckling a little himself when she turned to him with a rare smile. “And you’re right- they’re more elaborate and interdependent than our lessons portrayed. The Parnus scientists were earth-bound by a single planet model. They didn’t imagine a multi-planet ecosystem and entirely overlooked mutualism for human survival here”. At her look of concern, Dusan gave her a smile of reassurance, “I promise to answer your questions while we adjust to the difference in gravity and evaluate bio” He ran a hand lightly over her silver hair. “I’m glad you’re here, too”.

Scotia felt his concern through his touch- exquisitely so. More spcaious than she recalled from their boarding on Earth, the interior of the craft hummed with equipment recessed behind pale walls. A petite oval disk unfolded on the opposite wall while a pair of round padded seats rose from the floor on silver spindles and caught her attention momentarily before she turned back slowly in order to full take in Dusan’s form. He seemed to have lost the lean hardness he once prided himself on, yet a measured danger lingered. She did not imagine a new world softening Dusan and decided to keep her own foreign feelings to herself. “Can I have something to eat before we do that?”, she glanced over at their newly-arrived seating which looked made for spinning to her.

“That’s a positive indication!” Dusan moved her aside gently and made a series of hand motions not unlike sign language. For a split second she imagined his fingers trailing down her back in the cave on earth. Scotia assumed the holographic panel that appeared held her health log. “Two Nutriquids, Delbert”, he practically shouted with a grin. Her laughter was all the reward he needed for naming the spacecraft after their kindergarten class’s pet turtle.

“When do we go to Parnus, Dusan?”

Here came the hard part, he thought, his hesitation a red flag for Scotia. In her usual manner, she pushed, “What did you mean “mutualism to survive here”? For humans?” The hydrobot slipped between her lips, programmed for 20 spoken words. “This is a little annoying, by the way”.

“You need to listen more than talk anyway”, Dusan said and put up his hand as she took a breath to protest. “Your esophagus is fragile, so the hydrobot will remain at that setting for a couple more days. I won’t take chances with your reorganization, Scotia”. The table between them retracted with a button and he moved closer. “Do you remember mutualism from our bioengineering courses”? Scotia nodded and gave him a small smile. Adaptation equals survival, she reminded herself. She had adapted in Eudaimonia and she’d adapt on Parnus for Zehmy. Unfortunately, she hadn’t left her nail-biting habit on earth but instead of giving in to it, she sat on her hands and forced herself to focus on Dusan’s surreal words regarding how humans, and every other living thing on Parnus, relied on “Ixkeeb” as an operating consciousness which assisted their survival, but required certain evolutions for humans.

Why did “Ixkeeb” sound so familiar?

Taking her trembling hand from under her thigh, Dusan guided it behind his ear to what felt like a gill that moved in sync with his breath. Scotia wanted to run, but where could she go? She made herself stay still, her breath only stopping for a moment in surprise. Then he took the same hand behind her own ear to a small slit. Scotia’s heart raced as she tried to grasp that somehow she was growing gills. Gills!

“Do we breathe underwater, Dusan? Tell me what to expect. You don’t look that different…”, Scotia realized she could only see so much.

“Ixkeeb lives under the surface, which is similar to water. I have gills because Ixkeeb chose Zehmy as his diplomatic envoy, Scotia”.

“Zehmy is only six”, she muttered, confusion creasing her forehead.

“Zehmy is uniquely gifted, Scotia. Ixkeeb may have…, no I’m sure, Ixkeeb contacted him before we ever left Earth. I don’t know when or how, but Zehmy recognized Ixkeeb while everyone else was initially shocked, if not terrified”.

Scotia thought of Zehmy in his crib babbling in the sunlight after his naps, his little fat hands reaching upward. Her baby boy. “I’m ready to meet Ixkeeb and hug Zehmy, Dusan. I need to see my son before you tell me more. I can face anything afterward, but right now I need love more than intel”.

He wanted to protest, but knew it would cost him her trust. “As long as you agree to let me help you, to not shut me out, we can start descent. Three levels of decompression enables the entire craft to land. It would be best if you inhaled calming mist for a while… ok, nevermind on the mist”. Her vehement head shake at his last request let him know she was still herself.

Poison Arrows & A Taste for Vengeance

Nessus in the Pisces/Virgo Eclipse Cycle

How the universe regulates astrophysics can be found in cycles. Tracking the nodes of the moon is not only useful for astrologers and astronomers, but the 18.6 year eclipse cycle is also used to predict tidal patterns and coastal flooding by oceanographers and coast gurads around the world.

Astrological understanding of Solar and Lunar eclipses begins with knowldege of the North and South nodes of the Moon’s cycle transiting two of the twelve zodiac signs for a year and a half, with an overlap rather than a linear progression. Pisces & Virgo’s last eclipse cycle began shortly after Facebook became available to all users (2006) and ushered in a time of global economics with the birth of the European Union and the North American Free Trade Agreement.

Our strength when the North Node is in Pisces lies with logical Mercurial Virgo and the S. Node of the past, actual information balancing deep spiritual and psycholigcal unknowns.  

The N. Node in Pisces whispers, “can you imagine if” and begs us to suspend our intellect in favor of trying new ways based on what we need and want rather than what we think. This is chaos at heaven’s gate, suspension of our quest for empirical evidence for that of unseen energy. Most can agree truth is not easy to swallow while swimming in a sea of information, but this is where unseen principles like archetypal psychology assists us with pattern recognition and benefits of disruption and redirection.

In addition to intensely strong change signatures of Jupiter, Neptune, and Mercury due to their positions, there is an element of hugely karmic energy in this eclipse cycle.

Nessus, a centaur minor planet discovered in 1993 between Saturn and Pluto, is riding with the N. Node in Pisces, and flavoring this cycle with the excessive appetites of centaurs in mythology. It isn’t all fun and centaur games in laid back Pisces, though. Unifying potentials tug at our hearts and the collective may witness harsh consequences for abuse of power. Sowing poison may be rampant, but few poisoners escape their own intentions. Sometimes the most positive contribution in an unhealthy situation is nothing. “I contribute nothing to (_fill in the blank_)”, is a powerful self-reminder.

In Greek mythology, Nessus becomes a ferryman carrying passengers back and forth across the river Evenus on his back; a third chance for the lusty Centaur who had escaped paying for his unapologetically immoral behavior countless times. On this day, Nessus told Princess Deianara, gorgeous, yet insecure wife of Hercules, he would be more than happy to offer her a ride across a roaring river bulging with recent rains to the road on the far side. “Just across the river and no further,” ordered Hercules without even a glance in Nessus’s direction. He may have recognized the centaur if he paid him even the slightest attention. But, he was preoccupied looking back the way they had come as the couple ran from the wrath of his father-in-law, King Oeneus, due to Hercules’s inadvertent killing of his favorite cup bearer. Thoroughly disgusted with her husband, Deianara accepted the centaur’s offer. Across the river, Hercules heard his beloved’s shrieks as Nessus ran his hands up her gown and over her legs and tried to carry her away from her husband. Pulling an arrow dipped in a hydra’s poisonous blood from his quiver, an enraged Hercules shot Nessus in the chest before the centaur made it to the tree line with his unwilling rider. As he laid writhing from the poison, Nessus begged Deianara’s forgiveness through sobs. Even in his weakened state he charmed her with his excuses. Surely, she knew he had lost his mind due to his nature as half beast coupled with her irresistible allure. It really was not his fault she had tempted him by riding astride as he had advised for the safest passage. Blood rushing to her cheeks at his innuendo, Deianara was caught off guard by his inappropriate speech.

As a token of apology to the princess, the cunning centaur collected a few drops of his hydra-tainted blood in a tiny vial and gifted it to Deianara.  A love potion made from his centaur blood was the least he could do to make amends. Potently effective, he told Hercules’s wife to save it in case her lover’s affection was ever captured by another, more youthful love interest in the future. Nessus promised if she used the contents of the vial Hercules would never look at another. While Deianara doubted Hercules would ever fall out of love with her, she still secreted the vial away in her purse. Nessus died happy, confident of his manipulation and eventual revenge on them both.

As Nessus predicted, eventually Hercules grew restless and dreamed of his love for the fair Iole. Her grandfather King Eurytus had reneged on granting Hercules her hand in marriage as a prize for winning an archery contest before he married Deianara because Hercules was cursed by Demeter and could be driven mad by her at any time. Years later, it bothered Hercules when he thought about how he, the most heralded hero in the entire universe, his strength equal to his father Zeus, was wronged by a mere mortal king. Vengeance was sweet when Hercules killed the king and his sons and took Iole as a slave after sacking the city. They would all know the price for denying him the respect her deserved.

From the balcony, Princess Deianara saw Hercules and his new richly dressed slave as they came through the estate gates. Deianara’s heart clenched at the young woman’s fresh beauty while the smug look on her husband’s face filled her with jealousy. Carefully, she laid out a new dark shirt for her beloved which perfectly hid droplets of Nessus’s love charm.

Within seconds of dressing Hercules fell to the ground screaming in torment from the hydra’s poison he himself had collected and used against his foes. The pain was unbearable and unrelenting, but he yelled out that it was his wife who gave him the poisonous shirt. Finally, he built his own funeral pyre from nearby trees, climbed onto it while still writhing in agony and begged for someone, anyone, to be friend enough to light it and end his life.

Deianara was heartbroken her jealousy had been used to kill the Hero Hercules and she knew she would be punished severely by the Gods. Deianara rushed into their home and stabbed herself to death. In the Greek language her name stands for “husband destroyer.”

In astronomy Nessus has an unpredictable orbit, making its future movements unknown, much like micro aggressions that fester if not forgotten. In archetypical psychology some or all of the characters are within our psyche. Do you recognize:

  1. The Arrogant Hero displaying superiority and entitlement to the point of violence and murder.
  2. The Wild Unbridled Horse- a part of the human psyche which celebrates freedom from man-made rules and cannot be tamed.
  3. The Villain is morally corrupt and brings all the nasty emotions which drive violence like lust, jealousy, and spite.
  4. The Jealous Wife who tries to manipulate and control her spouse.

A modern Nessus narrative may show up as a friend who leaves you alone to pick up food with an extremely attractive stranger who you mentioned was your type when you arrived at a party together. Hercules’s traits may be seen in a random person who assumes you want to dance when they grab your arm and spin you in a circle while announcing it will be a night to remember now that you are with him. Deianara may appear as you telling the overly enthusiastic dance partner that you have a friend who is perfect for them then introducing the two as soon as she returns. Meanwhile, your friend does not have the chance to tell you that she talked you up to the person you thought was extremely attractive.

We all have shadows/behaviors born from unmet needs or victimization, but it is the hiding of our human weaknesses that destroys relationships. As we travel with Nessus conjunct the North Node of fate over an unpredictable period, being aware of our desires and what we need to feel fully free keeps us safe from poisoning, or manipulation and misunderstandings. Revenge carries an energy in the Nessus mythos that doubles back and self-destructs.

Full Moon Journeying in Capricorn

The road from 1° to 29°

On the summer solstice, we had our first Full Moon in Capricorn at 1° shortly after 9p EST, while Neptune sat at an illusory 29° of Pisces opposing Black Moon Lilith on eagle-eyed 29° Virgo, creating a dynamic Grand Cross by degree, but not involving the eclipse energies of Libra and Aries. Leadership is conflict-ridden and cannot move.

Full Moon in Capricorn on June 21, 2024

Interestingly, the Sabian symbol for 1° of Capricorn is a Tribal Chief and asks how does a man use the power entrusted to him by his people. For this reason, and due to a correlation with Tropical Astrology seasonal theory, I reference Native Lakota definitions of the Four Directions for this Grand Cross:

  • East, where the Sun rises, the beginning of understanding, Light lets us see reality, Wisdom – Capricorn Full Moon in this chart
  • West, where the Sun sets, rivers, lakes and Essential water, the Great Thunderbird lives in the West & brings storms – Cancer Sun in this chart
  • South, where the Sun is at its highest and draws Life from the earth, warm & pleasant winds – Virgo Lilith in this chart
  • North, where the Sun is at its lowest and Cold harsh winds cleanse the earth, resilience – Pisces Neptune in this chart

No one can deny the Cardinal tensions of the past month as marginalized voices strain to be recognized (Lilith), feelings amplify and direct us, and the wealthiest, most powerful among us, jockey for position (Sun in Cancer). This is have/have not oppositional, King-of-the-Hill competition flavored by the recent Jupiter/Uranus conjunction.

During this time of Uranian technology the collective searches for firm footing on a shifting sea floor (Saturn in Pisces), but Neptune and Lilith opposing one another creates snapshot productions of guilt, tragedy and luxurious desires. Dopamine dumping as a result of scrolling short-form content has resulted in a universal addiction while Neptune has been in Pisces, just as intended.

Stone Henge was temporarily defaced by Eco activists the day prior to the summer solstice using bright orange powder paint. Pretty sure I witnessed a glimmer of Druidic sacrificial energy, likely due to Pluto in Aquarius. Humans normally aligned on ecology became outraged at the action, the attachment to material overtaking concern for earth. Connections in our lives may have been fractured during this first full moon or we may have realized a diminishing value in others. Isolation and even depression are often the signatures of a Capricorn Moon in fall. The flow between Cancer and Capricorn is not easy-going despite both being feminine. They still initiate change as Cardinal signs, one representing night and the other the toil and ambition of day.

Midway between our Capricorn Full Moons a New Moon in Cancer on July 5 brought forward ancestral and familial issues relating to “home” as the U.S. celebrated its’ independence and Hurricane Beryl landed on the Yucatan Peninsula. Water elemental energy stirs emotions and our sense of belonging may have been highlighted. New intentions regarding our family relationships, forgiveness and strengthening our home security are themes during the season of the crab who carries their home with them. In the creation chart of the world, a.k.a. the Thema Mundi, Cancer sits at the helm on the Ascendant and was termed by ancient philosophers as the “doorway to life”. Cancer symbolizes the waters of birth as well as a cycle of rise and fall. Change brings stress, but we find our seas legs the less we struggle against it.

As one of the ruling energies, Saturn in watery Pisces can help our seasickness. By grounding in the mundane tasks and responsibilities we may not relish, we become present and able to create future security. It is ok if we only feel or dream it with an abundance of watery emotion as our backdrop. As conflicts increase, the Wheel is being reconstructed even as it is being destroyed at a faster than usual pace. This is a continuing saga from the 2020 Great Conjunction of Jupiter and Saturn at 0° Aquarius, a New Air period of human advancement and revolutionary idealism has begun.

Thema Mundi

Our 2nd Full Moon in Capricorn is at 29° on July 21, 2024. The Sabian symbol is a woman reading tea leaves, which Dane Rudyhar interprets as recognizing omens and signs in everything that occurs. The “as above so below” theory is represented- what Rudyhar describes as “true clairvoyance”. There is a connectivity between all things, a universal truth felt more fully in the sign the ancients referred to as the “gateway of the Gods”. The final degree is especially Saturnian as Capricorn feels a responsibility to build the ideal in the physical world, to bring heaven to earth.

Idealistic Souls with Suns located in the latter degrees of Capricorn

  • Dolly Parton’s Sun is at 29°
  • Edgar Allen Poe’s Sun is at 28°
  • Jim Carrey’s Sun is at 26°
  • Martin Luther King’s Sun is at 25°

Applying to a conjunction with Pluto at 0° Aquarius, the Moon puts a spotlight on the shadow side of humanitarian idealism and technological advances. The French Revolution encapsulates Aquarian zeal becoming extra, the oppressed becoming oppressors. Most of us are innocent bystanders during this full moon, just as we all carry the energy of Capricorn and Cancer in our zodiacal chart. Not adding to conflict can avert Pluto’s energy, but this may be difficult with an exact square between Uranus the change-maker and Mercury in dramatic Leo. Squares in astrology carry the energy of Mars, who is at a 0° of Gemini, so there may be debating among friends. In my opinion this is the hardest part of new cycles, but Venus in Leo is higher-heart energy that comes from the Divine Feminine. Manifesting this in our 3D world is possible with steady effort that includes emotional care and regulation. We are tasked with being authentic and present in reality. Grounding this intensity in productivity and mindful physical movement such as QiGong or Donna Eden’s energy exercises is favorable, while heartfelt conversations can wait a few days. As the Moon wanes, so do emotions. Capricorn rules the bones, knees and lower back. Cardinal signs, Scorpio, and Aquarius should be mindful of over overdoing, always a danger for everyone during any full moon along with overestimating ability.

The Sabian symbol for 0° Aquarius is an adobe mission and may be interpreted as the enduring product of spiritual vision. Again, we are met with a concept of ideals being made manifest, legacies which survive past the physical lives of the builders.

My ideal vision includes a useful garden and my grandson’s success, so I am pouring effort into those ideals. My dream of an astrology practice is more possible with the Ancient Astrology course I’m currently finishing. Writing astrology pieces like this is more aligned with my ideals than creating short-form content, is one of my full moon realizations with Capricorn in my 1st house of identity.

How are you building your ideal?

Project Hardcopy

A Hybrid of Roots & Wings

From the technology lens, the speed of societal change is somewhat dizzying, familiarity becoming rare without a real effort to capture it. Effort itself is a bit outdated, but like a freshly-prepared meal compared to fast food, it’s the first ingredient for deliciousness and enjoyment. Slow cooking is one of those hands-off-the-screen activities that help my nervous system decompress while my overactive mind chops and simmers new ideas.

Progress is frequently viewed as a road constructed in uncharted territory, a pursuit of novel scientific solutions. Only recently, I’ve wondered, “what would we do without satellites and global internet” and “I hope there’s a backup plan”. As NASA gathers research on solar storms and flares, a part of me is anxious about Icarus-like tech giants.

Don’t worry- This isn’t a tech doomsday imagining, nor will I bore you with reminiscences of my dog-eared books, or tea stains and greasy prints on thousands of notebook pages. I simply wonder if some media not only feels secure as a hard copy in my possession, but also strikes something in my genetic memory, a chord of imaginings stretching and supporting me when I’m blocked or feel low. I can delete it from everywhere else and have a single vulnerable hard copy (shiver). I’m unsure if it’s riskier than a sudden outage or an unreliable auto-save feature.

Yesterday my 7-year-old grandson excitedly told me, “We were attacked!”, when I picked him up from school, then went on to reassure me, “but we don’t have to worry because they are far away in Russia or another country”. At least they aren’t sheltering under their desks, I told myself as I steered our conversation to pencils, paper worksheets, and white boards. He went on to tell me it wasn’t a big deal because “we don’t have any schoolwork left, just fun stuff”. Fortunately, an all-day walking field trip in their town including history lessons and ice cream was already scheduled for his class the next day. Real-time learning activities minimized the hacker’s damage and I hope gave administrators ideas for mitigating impacts of future digital outages.

I’m not suggesting we roll back tech and ai advances that continue to prove efficient, but I wonder if today’s news regarding militarized Russian satellites gives us one more reason to prepare for internet outages. The loss of the library at Alexandria comes to mind when I think of the intellectual property stored in the cloud. The decades upon decades of dystopic stories have trained my brain, I know, yet cannot help but follow the plot to old-timey solutions that somewhat save our sanity, if not our humanity.

Vinyl has made a resurgence for the same reason I am suggesting hard copies of stories and vital information, not as a sole source, but as an artistic product in multiple formats for security’s sake and for our mental health. Being a creative is challenging enough without worrying about losing work.

In the midst of a tech era, I’ve been studying Ptolemy, Manilius, & Vettius Valens, learning the history and theory of ancient astrology. A side-effect of studying Greek philosophy is sharpening observations of the world around me, especially noticing patterns of rise and fall. As we rise, we typically take some of the past with us, the known blending with unknowns. Perhaps, by reading real-life books, printing a few pages at the library and writing in notebooks we can find footing in a world increasingly constructed of air.

These are the thoughts and feelings informing my hybrid-model astrology practice in June, 2024. When the aliens arrive, I realize I may need to adapt, but stories will always be secure inside an exercised and flexible mind.

Parnus- Part 1- New Earth

After being cast in darkness for weeks, blushing Parnus moonslight flooded the cabin and allowed him to shut down pin-prick lights overhead, saving what power he could for landing. Her eyes darting behind their lids, Scotia didn’t surface as quickly as Dusan desired. A staccato beat reverberated in the cramped space, his giveaway foot in sync with short and quick breaths. A relaxant mist no longer delivered in tandem with oxygen and nitrogen would be helpful at the moment, Dusan thought. Two years he’d waited. “Scotia”, he bent down and whispered close to her ear, long nimble fingers brushing her hair back from her creased forehead. Always serious Scotia. An initially positive indication of cell coherence despite its’ silver hue, Dusan noted hair growth in her record with a nod. If anyone was made for this sunless planet, it’s Scotia, he thought and traced one vividly blue vein the length of her clavicle.

“Approaching Parnus”, the craft announced. The remainder of her physical inventory would have to wait. “Secure your person and all loose objects within the next sixty seconds before momentum shifts”. His hand lingered against her cheek for a moment longer. Momentum shift, indeed. Whatever lay ahead, at least she was here with him and Zehmy.

Except, Scotia still dreamed of old earth. She paced the gardens of Eudaimonia, normally where she’d find her best friend Haffney, hunched over eggplant or pepper plants, never choosing the best for their weekly portion as she did. Where could he be? Once, there had been sprawling flower gardens complete with an intricate hedge maze and baby animal statuary which separated Eudaimonia’s scientific center from the shoreline a few miles away. A sea surge claimed that parcel not long after most of the population left for Parnus. Her eyes stung from the gusting salty wind, but an almost-full moon helped her navigate a path. “Haff?”, she called feebly. Deja vu fluttered like a sheer curtain in her periphery. She retreated a couple of paces. Sounds from the equipment shed carried on the wind and made her heart clench as if it stopped. Scotia’s shorn head hinged back and forth fiercely in the shadowy night as her mind struggled with what it heard. Preeky’s cries of pleasure were plain, as was his “yeah, that’s it”. Scotia ran then, away from the shed, away from Haff and betrayal, back to their container where she’d plead illness. Just for the day. Then she’d get it together, she thought, but her body heaved with sobs and her childhood sweetheart story lodged in her throat. She damned Dusan, again, for leaving her behind on this dying planet. But… how did she hear him, “Scotia! Scotia”, excited and definitely Dusan, “We’re here, Scotia!”

Although they efforted, earth’s civilization could not recover enough ecosystem to sustain the species. Extinction became probable as catastrophic events occurred almost daily and fertility grew scarce at an equally stifling rate. Those who remained in the western world created Eudaimonia, a new society, in a region formerly known as Colorado. Scotia, Haffney and Dusan were born in Eudaimonia and began training for a new planetary home before the age of five.

Despite world unification, Mother Earth and Father Sun did not open their hearts again for humanity. Her core mantle and atmospheric shield abused beyond repair, she now only needed water to cool her from his raging beams. In only two short decades, they lost most of the world’s artful masterpieces, along with the seven wonders of the world and cave drawings dating back to the dawn of mankind. The seas rose over Vatican City, completing the fall of Rome, while towering skyscrapers across the world fell unceremoniously. Eventually, Eudaimonia’s population sustained themselves on a single meal of millet and sweet potatoes, later adding iron-rich plasma snacks when prisons became insecure. Cannibalism wore a disguise of justice.

Remaining scientists became royalty, and as such, reassigned resources toward discovering an exostar or moon with a habitable zone. They hoped for two decades, at least, of data collecting. Their plan provided time to devise survival necessities and structure developmental plans. Repopulation hopes seemed more fantastical than relocating. For once, every human on old earth agreed discovery was their primary move if humans advanced to another planetary home. After a decade of increasingly desperate and resultingly daring exploration of the Milky Way, only two viable sub-planets were discovered, exhaustively studied, and to everyone’s sorrow, ruled out .

Commander Xavier Parnus hypothesized a harnessing of enigmatic forces between Baade’s Window and the Galactic Center in order to travel outside of the Milky Way. His theories met with scorn, mockery and threats to his explorer license until, with the help of Dr. Urick Parnus’ biophysics team, he found a way through and beyond. The sons of astronauts, the brothers were catapulted into heroes worth worshipping once Parnus was deemed unexpectedly habitable.

While Dusan’s bio-pod had opened a week prior, Scotia had remained in an induced theta state with periodic windows of deep delta wave restoration until they arrived in the orbit of Parnus’ furthest moon. The pod provided several essentials: oxygen, hydration, nutrition, waste removal, and cryogenic sleep. In preparation for Scotia’s retrieval from old earth/Eudaimonia, Dusan himself had added an extra layer of shielding in hopes of mitigating metabolic changes and cellular abnormalities upon morphogenesis, or “reorganization” as Eudaimonia’s elders preferred to describe the process.

Frowning at a tiny oval scar at Scotia’s hairline, Dusan wondered whether he’d made a mistake agreeing to the implant. Coni would’ve let him add his affirmations regardless, he thought, then cast his regret away with a shrug.

Conshoi, Dusan’s sister and reluctant Director of Health on Parnus, added psyche reconditioning and unity consciousness to the orientation modules in Scotia’s biopod. “Coni”, as Dusan called her, also let her brother insert a few assurances throughout Scotia’s theta periods, after she gave her older brother an enormous dose of teasing. Nothing comes for free, she’d reminded him. With Dusan’s consent, an epicortical nano implant was placed easily with Scotia in cryogenic stasis. Research volunteers were scarce on Parnus, although generalized fear seemed to be relenting according to Coni’s measurements. Still, she considered all of the 388 humans who inhabited Parnus psychologically fragile.

“Scotia, we’re home”, his long dark fingers caressed her cheek and stirred their nano-implants into a dopamine dump with a bit of serotonin, a calming hormone he suspected she lacked. Her eyes calmed and the edges of her mouth turned up. Sharp edges of her collarbones and wrists had softened some since they departed Eudaimonia. Her cheeks weren’t sunken anymore, the injuries from bashing into the cliff face mere shadows now. The state of her mind would take longer to assess than her physical condition, her experiences an anomaly in the new Parnus population. People were accustomed to her being an anomaly, though. Dusan didn’t think she’d be happy about muscle loss, but Zehmy would make up for any negatives, after her initial shock. Almost two years could not be undone in 32 days, he knew, but he had not felt this hopeful since… Dusan shook his head, his braid clamps clinking at his back. “Scotia, wake up. Come see these bubble waterfalls on our moons”, he told her as her eyes slit and her head swiveled to him. “Here, let me get your breathing tube. You ready?” At her nod, his mouth turned up at the corners. Of course, she was ready. “You know what to do. Here we go, Scotia. Inhale. Now big exhale.” So far, so good. Her cough sprayed him in a fine mist and activated a humming air vacuum. ”Here, let me help”. A tickling sensation in her cheeks made her involuntarily crinkle her nose as he suctioned out her mouth.

She’d made it. Scotia squinted her scratchy eyes toward the rosy sky outside their spacecraft’s viewing panel. After taking a slow and long sip of unfamiliar liquid from a hydrobot, she croaked, “How soon”? Dreams of Zehmy had filled her theta wave periods even before their journey to Parnus. Drawing in enough air to inflate her lungs felt impossible, as if an immoveable weight sat in their depths. “I feel like if I could get a few deep breaths my mind would clear”, she whispered to Dusan, his face close to hers.

“Your body is waking up and taking over where the pod functioned. I’ll get some measurements in a minute,” Dusan replied. He lifted her out of the pod to a nearby padded chaise where he’d slept next to her since his biopod opened. He hoped he never had to get in one again. Despite closing the viewing panel and ports on immense swaths of nothingness, space was lonely. Scotia was not the only one excited about a reunion with Zehmy.

Ixkeeb insisted on an in-person introduction to Scotia. Dusan’s wide forehead creased and he let out a long exhale. If he didn’t warn her… or even if he did, Scotia’s reaction would determine all of their futures.

Exiles

Alphonse Mucha, Mars, 1899

voices decanted from a forgotten vessel

stirred in my bowl of belly senses

with care and precision by the manager

oblivious to a warrior child impatiently waiting

unspeakables falling out of her pocket

as she drums into creation

a newborn dragon nestled in ash

one eye open and searching

heaven’s detours for a

never-imagined journey

along illuminated slopes

slippery with meteoric insight

ecliptic signposts alchemized in timelessness

newborn galaxies explosions of awareness

unmarred unwounded unknown

slow cautions Saturn

feel and flow

sky as sea

reflecting black iris depths

from the edge of her abyss

a living volcano driving upward

lava roiling in her heart

cooled by eternal divine waves

she claims invisible Mars

her pockets inside out empty

with a nod she removes her helmet

and sheaths a broken sword

“I am the Sun!”

a sea of tears whispers within

I am the stars

Mars unfurls her baby wings

Courtland Cemetery

I was drawn here to find my ancestors graves. Once here, others beckoned, many with names and dates worn away. My Great-Great Grandfather William Beatty died from TB (“consumption”), common at the time.

I couldn’t find my Great-Great Grandmother Lucy Flynn’s grave among the Flynn markers, but maybe I will find her next time. A few women’s graves are marked simply with “Wife” to “a man’s name” and there are many small white stone markers without names.

Age is noted on many gravestones, even down to the # of days.

Voice

At ten

secrets leaked

on yellow pages

“Bruises on my Soul”

Innocent heart

nudging in shadow

sensing

lifelong land mines

Keys swing

on my hip

but locks

on Medicine

dissipate on

my tongue

Beckoning heart

Rousing

an inherited impulse

to unlock

Everything